Unpacking Your Life

On monday I had an MRI BrainScan. I have to admit I liked the MRI. It was peaceful to lay, confined and not be able to move. I didn’t worry about having to be still, all I had to do was simply exist.

Existing is something that is a peaceful thought. No worries, however no impact. The reality is coming that I might begin to be limited in what I am able to do. Now, at first, this sound relaxing, however when you ponder it… the stress begins. For someone who doesn’t like to be confined, moving forward in my life will be difficult.

Next Monday I have an appointment to discuss my back and spine, then the monday after that I have to go back to the neuroligist, to look at the mri results and to do some nerve testing on my arms. At this point I have no idea what is wrong with me. I still have the arm and leg pains, and now my back is starting to hurt. I am also getting more headaches. I am working less and resting more. I am also eating MUCH better and have lost 10lbs already. So we’ll see how things progress.

So it’s times to move on. But I am not sure what to do, or what should be done. I am happy where I am now, but I feel that I could be very lazy, very quickly. Think of it as a comfort zone.

An interesting oppurtunity came up at work. Should I run with it, or should I pass it over. My current team can use my help, help being the foundation to build upon. However should I think about me and what I want? What do I want?

What do I want to do? Not sure really, but I do think I need some change, some stimulation. 10 years doing the same thing for the same company on almost the same team can really get ya. I mean if I take the new oppurtunity, It would be new and exciting, but it will would be doing kinda the same thing.

Should I stay comfortable?

(This is something I typed yesterday, we are back)

This morning we left London on our way back to the states. I can be pretty reflective at this point, looking back at all the experiences and all the highs and lows. I now have a large list of things to do and things that we have done. The first thing to do is to get my life back in order. Working for your career is fine, but you have to take time to remember the experiences and be able to take time to dwell in the experience. There is some much more I want to see and do, so much more to taste and feel. Oliver has that much more that he has and will be able to experience.

Spending time aboard does tend to give you a different perspective. You get to read about your own nations from others point of views and you get to see what others are saying. Right or wrong doesn’t matter, but hearing those other opinions can help shape your own or provide more of a foundation for something you already believe in.

So what happens next? Well, it’s time to take care of Brian. No more consulting, expect the few that I have left. It’s time to buckle down and spend the time to do a 110% job, and not about 80% like it has been. It think quality of service was dwindling, I am not sure customers feel the same way but I know I was not doing 100% of the job. Time to stop doing as much preventative maintenance, and just fix what is needed with scheduled activities. There is always something to do, so time to stop choosing that over family. Time for Church. I attend church, but I don’t activity participate, since I am always doing the sound. Granted I will keep doing it, but it needs to become a worship experience for me, not just my Sunday gig as my friend Jarrod used to say.

Exercise and eating and rest. Wow did I just type that. Yes I did. I think I am going to try and get up early with my good friend JJ and exercise. It will be very hard at first, but it’s something that needs to be done and if I am getting home at a decent hour I should able to do it. Time will tell. School, I have finished my degree, now we just have the paperwork to get finished, and then I get to go to Denver to walk. I wasn’t going to, but now I am going to since it seems to mean something to my parents. So then what? Well I am not sure. I think I want to get a Masters in Biblical Studies and archeology or a Masters in Islamic Studies from Southwestern Theological Seminary here in Fort Worth.

Then we have the ideas for the Burleson Market. I think we need to do a Donut Stand and Orange Juice. Then we can move to root beer later. This would be something fun, and would be worth the investment in the long run. It’s time to start thinking beyond the computer business. Mom has agreed to help with SpamGoblin as the head of the sales department, so this is something I am looking forward to growing. I think with her persistence she will be successful however it will be a slow start. So as long as we have some smaller and obtainable goals she will do fine. In fact as soon as we get back in town, I will be ensuring she is properly enabled (computer wise) to be successful, that is my first order of business.

So really when you break it down (hammer time) it’s truly an opportunity to have a new beginning. A fresh start. I remember when I entered the middle pyramid on the Giza plateau, it was like going into another world as you crawl into the hot and musty subterranean world, not knowing how far it is, not knowing the way and watching people coming out looking fatigued and drenched with sweat. As you descend you are a bit uneasy as to if this was the right choice. After a ways you level off, then you begin another uphill climb. Life is kinda this way. It’s easy for a while going, then it levels off, then you have a new uphill challenge. In this case we reached the pharaohs chamber were greeted by an opening larger than expected. This is where you can stop, dwell and catch your breath. This is where I feel I am now in my life’s journey. I have been given and opportunity to stop and catch my breath. I am very fortunate for this opportunity.
 
So now all I have left is a bit of a downhill walk, some leveling off and a great uphill climb.

London Calling…
Today we finished up day 2 in London. What did we try and cram and see… everything. We hit all the tourist highlights, and got plenty of souvenirs. A highlight for Brandi and I was we hired a black taxi for 2 hrs to drive us all over the city. Unfortunately it was scheduled ahead of time, so we had to take the trip regardless. Well it was raining, so we got a rainy view of everything in London. Our taxi driver rocked, he even took Brandi and I to see the Abbey Road Zebra Crossing (crosswalk). So we have some good video of me walking across.

Brandi and I think we might come back before the holidays, just to see a play or something. Not sure, it all depends on what happens when we get back home and back to some type of reality.

Tomorrow we have a very long day of travel, and lots of more stories to think about. But I have a new respect for the Brits. Fortunately they really collected lots of things.

We have arrived in London to begin the final leg of our trip. We left the ship today at 7:45am (gmt +2) and we arrived at the hotel at 11:45pm (gmt) Do the math. It seems as there were only 3 British Airways flights from Athens to London today and they were all booked solid, so we ended up having to wait at the airport for about 6 hours before we could board and take off. Oh well, it’s part of life when you travel, the key is be flexiable. I told mom, no wake up call tomorrow. We get up when we get up. We are all pretty tired.

Ollie was a real trooper today, he is being taken all these places, no routines etc… but he just goes with the flow. Life is kinda that way. Just go with the flow.

We are staying a few blocks from the Abbey Road Studios of Beatles Fame, and on Saturday afternoon we have a Black Cab coming to pick us up for a Private Tour of London, all the tourist stuff. We plan on eating some fish and chips, and maybe Brandi can talk me into trying a warm ale (but I really doubt that).

So we really have 2 days to see what we can see. It will be quick, but it will give me a glimpse into what I might want to come back and see. That’s all for now, I need to get to bed. I am pushing 24 hrs of being away. I didn’t sleep last night as I couldn’t find my cel phone. Thanks to Kerry and Vic for calling and helping us find it.

Today was another stop at the Turkish Port of Kusadasi. The most famous reason to go to this port is for a tour of Ephesus. However during out last time at port, we toured Ephesus and other areas, so this time we went on a tour of 3 ancient cities, Priene, Didyma and Miletus. Ollie and Mom didn’t go today so it was just my dad, Brandi and myself. So we were expecting an uneventful day. Well it was far from that.

Priene was a Greek and Roman Settlement at different times. It has a great temple, and has some well preserved ruins as well. Here is where our story begins… On this tour we had 3 busses, bug 9, 10 11. We were on bus 11 due to use running late. I didn’t want to get up… I was a little tired and got delayed checking email what else is new right? Well as we are walking up the hill to the ancient city our guide gets a call. Our guide immediately asks if someone was a doctor. He then begins to tell us that someone from group 9 is having a heart attack. Group 9 was on the other side of the ancient city. So our guide goes to make some calls since he is a translator and the paramedics don’t speak English.

Within about 5 mins and 35ish year old male starts to have what we think is a seizure so our group does that best we can to get him situated. Our guide was just coming back and he was like “what’s up today”. So he calls for the paramedics, it just so happens they called 2 ambulances. So now we have one for the heart attack and this other guy. Well the paramedics came for the other guy and got him all situated, so our guide goes back to being our guide and continues to show us around. Now, we make it over to the amphitheatre where the heart attack victim was. As we climb over a wall and walk down some steps, the first image I see is them pumping on his chest. My immediate thought is that this doesn’t look good and I said a prayer for him and his wife who was there sobbing. It was pretty evident, he was dead.

Back to our tour number 9. We were just kinda standing with a dead body on the other side of the area. We paused for a few mins so our guide can translate, then someone else arrived our guide came back to us and we continued the tour and discussion with someone’s lifeless body in view. I asked the guide later why we didn’t leave out of respect and he told me that, he wanted to but someone from the group hinted that they paid for a tour guide, so he needed to do his job. Based on who was with us and who has been on this cruise, I can totally believe him. So it got me thinking, why are we as an American culture so self absorbed. Well it’s not everyone but in this case it would be about 50% of the people who were traveling with us. I have plenty of stories for all of you when I return about how inconsiderate this group of people where. It’s the idea that is you have money you are better than the help, but the funny part is these people aren’t it’s Holland America, not their own ship.

Anyhow, after everything settled down we got back on the bus and went to the next city of Miletus. Miletus has many great ruins, and the great part is you can explore them on your own. Then we had a great lunch of a Turkish stuff. I am glad they didn’t label it, I probably wouldn’t try it. Of course it was all good.

After lunch we went to the city of Didyma and the Temple of Apollo. This was the site for the largest oracle in Asia, so it was very well known in its time. It was first used by the Greek, then later used by the Romans and Christians as well. However the Greeks get the credit for this one. One thing that stuck me was the overall size of the temple. It was supposed to have 127 columns each about 80 feet high. As you can see from the photos the base on the columns is gigantic. You can image scaling this out to be complete. Then we made it back to the port with a little time for shopping. The first thing I heard was how little time people had, and I was so wanting for someone to say… “gosh if that guy wouldn’t have went and died think of all the extra time we would have” fortunately I didn’t hear that. I would have come unglued at that point. People are so insensitive. But what can you do? Besides be an example what can you do?

Today was a day of perspective. I could honestly see myself being that gentleman who passed on. What would I be leaving Brandi and then what type of life would I be having? It is time for some changes personally and professionally. I am not saying living every day for the experience, but I think it is time to start making some better choices. Although my career is very important and the financial blessing that come with it have provided for a good lifestyle for my wife and family, one thing this trip and these experiences have shown me is there is definitely more to life. Unfortunately it has to take a few kicks in the head for me to get it. Tonight is our last night on the ship, time to make the rounds and pass out the tips. A few crew members will be rewarded as they have gone over and above and above some more to help with our experience and with Oliver.

Tomorrow we arrive in Athens, than we fly to London for the weekend. Brandi, Oliver and I have a private tour scheduled to drive us around London on Saturday afternoon, and I think we are going to the British Museum and Westminster Abbey and the Tower of London on Friday. Then Sunday we spend the day flying home. I should be able to blog about London, depending on what we have going on. I’ll even mention the hotel we were going to stay at, then I read the reviews… we changed quickly.

Today we spent the day in Nesebur, Bulgaria. Nesebur is a Unesco site and is filled with many Byzantine ruins along cobblestone streets. Getting to Nesebur was a challenge. We had to tender into the port, and the swells were about 4 to 7 feet. So the little tender was bouncing around a bit. However I have to admit the crew handled it with extreme professionalism, and extreme safety. This cruise has tons of older folks on it, so they really needed some help with all the bouncing around.

We didn’t do a tour today; we just strolled around the city. It was another nice day to just walk around the soak in the culture. It was in the 60’s so it was rather cool, but still worth the trip. It was overall a short day. Once we made it back to the ship (which I have some great video of the tender bobbing around in the ocean) we just had some lunch, then went and played cards with mom and dad.

Mom and Dad are watching Ollie tonight, so we went to comedy show. So far all the comedians on this ship don’t use any blue humor or drop f-bombs. It’s nice to see a cruise line taking this stand, it’s not needed and frankly the ones I have seen have been incredibly funny.

Tomorrow we are at sea, and then we have 1 day left in Turkey… then to Athens to fly to London for the weekend. Our vacation is coming to an end soon, and it’s time to start thinking about what we have to do when we get home. Home Again Home Again.

Today was our day in the Ukraine. We landed in Sevastopol and drove all through the Crimea region. Our first stop was the Swallows Nest Castle, which of course is now a restaurant go figure. Then we continued on and made it to the summer home of Alexander the 3rd. It was a neat castle with some great gothic style accents.

After that we made our way over to the Livda Palace (pretty sure I spelled that wrong). It was the location of the Yalta Conference that was held after WWII. This was the famous meeting between, Roosevelt, Stalin, and Churchill. We got to see the table they all sat around, and got a great historical perspective.

Then we had a great lunch. It was at a restaurant that used to be the stables for the palace. We had a great waitress… that’s an in person story. Nothing I’ll post on the web. After that we made our way back to the ship. It was about a 1.5 hr drive each way so we had some time to look around.

Some interesting things to note, I saw more police presence in this area then I have ever seen before. According to the guide something was going on, and he thought it might be some higher ups coming in to town etc. Lots of people were pulled over kinda waiting for something, so that is probably a good guess. Also, I can tell you where the top secret submarine bases in for Russia in the Ukraine. Our guide pointed it out. Did you know that you can get a blue metal roof that looks just like the terra cotta tiles on Mediterranean style houses?

All in all, once again another city and country with people, just normal people. Oh and we have a person who is on the cruise who is wearing her Obama 08 button every where she goes. I just shake my head and walk away. Tomorrow we will be in Bulgaria.

Today we spent the day in Sochi, Russia. Sochi is the site of the 2014 Winter Olympic Games. The interesting part about Sochi is it’s a sub tropical climate. It’s a beach resort town on the black sea. But they are hosting the Winter Olympics… Well the actual games will be held about 50 km away. The unofficial story we got was that Putin owns lots of property in this area and stands to make a killing from the infrastructure that has to be built. Who knows.

The tour we went on today was to Stalin’s summer home in Sochi and a brief view of the city. Overall it was a nice city; the unfortunate part is you have to buy things in rubles. They won’t take the euro or the dollar, so they had a cruise ship full of Americans who they couldn’t sell cheap trinkets to since they wouldn’t exchange the currency. Anyhow, just another problem for them to solve.
Our guide was good and unfortunately many people in our group where just flat our rude to our 20 something guide. She has some interesting assets about her, that I discussed with Brandi. Brandi said she has chicken breasts… my response was huh? I still don’t fully understand that one, so I guess it’s a girl thing. Stalin’s Summer Home is totally painted green and come to find out he was a bit paranoid, on and his wife now lives in Wisconsin with a last name of Peters. Who would have thunk it.

Tomorrow we are heading to the Ukraine. I told mom and dad I would ask the stupid American question if they wanted me to… “Where are all the mail over brides… I have scheduled a pickup”. Just kidding of course. Tomorrow I think we are going to Yalta to see where the Yalta accord etc was signed. So much history in this area. Our trip is slowing coming to an end. We had to change our hotel in the UK after I happened to find the reviews on it. We changed to a Marriott. I’ll fill you in on that one later.

Today was our day in Trabzon, Turkey. Trabzon is a industrious port where they do lots of exports and has a great history. One of the main points of interest is the Sumela Monastery. This was a Greek orthodox monastery that was built into the side of a hill. As you can see it was a site worth seeing. Over the years the Muslims have defaced a good deal of the frescos but fortunately we have a few that are still in tacked. This holy place used to have 3 icons. Once the monastery was closed the 3 were sent all over the world, one was sent to New York, another was sent to Greece and that last was sent to Ireland. The church wanted to make sure they would not be desecrated.

In order to get to the monastery we had to take a bus, then a mini bus, and then finally walk. It was a cold and rainy day and they were doing road work, so we had a nice muddy walk. Finally we made it to the path which was covered with tree roots and other obstacles you had to navigate around. Once you make it to the entrance you have yet more stairs to climb, then you can see the majesty of the location. Pictures don’t do justice to the beauty of the surroundings.

This was our only day so it made for a short half of a day trip which was nice so would could lounge around the ship a bit before dinner. Tomorrow we are heading to Russia. Russia will be interesting, we are using a local guide to see Stalin’s summer home. So I am curious what the guide is like, and how much they actually believe in their country. Time will tell. I have 3 monastery pictures, and a Brandi shot. Ollie and mom didn’t go today they decided to just stay around the boat. Based on the terrain it was probably for the best.